Changing
I went to my sister's last night to sit with her and my cousin Josslyn that I mentioned in the last post. We watched shite on the TV and had a wee drink. Well, I say a wee drink - I had two bottles of wine to myself. It did not end well. But it occurred to me last night that as soon as there was heartache in her life she called Josslyn, she would tell my mum and seek Josslyn. Where did I fit in? I was sat there while they drank the same wine which tastes like vinegar, wanted to watch the same programmes I wouldn't watch if I was paid, wanted to listen to the same songs I'd never heard, talked about the "must watch" films that I had never seen... I sat with Rose wine even though I usually drink Jack Daniels munching on chocolate that they had never tasted dying watching the X Factor (bloody stupid programme, I'd rather watch OFAH or NCIS).
I knew we weren't a close family like I said in the last post, Nicole and I will never be close. I don't know if we are too similar, too different, if it's what's happened in the past, the four year gap, her ADHD and my condition. Whatever it is it's always seemed like Nicole and I were carbon opposites to each other. Even down to our biology. Whatever I have of my Mum's Nicole had of my Dad's and vice versa. So, Nicole has my fathers frame and mannerism like her changing of TV channels quickly and without consideration when I have the same frame as my Mum and I hate when Nicole does that just as my Mum hated when Dad did that. I have green eyes like my Dad whereas Nicole has brown eyes like Mum. I like Only Fools and Horses, Open All Hours, Porridge etc.
Whatever the reason, me and my sister are never close we don't call each other to catch up, we text each other to ask for something, or moan about something. Mostly the asking for something. I usually get a text from Nicole along the lines of "Hey, hows you? Would you mind taking Molly out? xx" Now that's not me being horrible it's just the truth. I'm the same. So, I went up to Nicole's on the Monday so imagine my surprise when my sister texts me this :
"Hey how's u? xx"
I said,
'I'm okay, you?'
"I'm ok, just wondering if you were ok. Have you heard anything from the hospital yet?xx"
The resulting conversation was about the operation, but I was genuinely surprised, well maybe 'surprised' was the wrong word. It sounds nasty, it's not that. It was a strange feeling of my sister texting me just to see if I'm okay but she did tweet me on the 18th of Oct as well, the day that I told her.
Nice little change.
Thanks Nicole :) x
I knew we weren't a close family like I said in the last post, Nicole and I will never be close. I don't know if we are too similar, too different, if it's what's happened in the past, the four year gap, her ADHD and my condition. Whatever it is it's always seemed like Nicole and I were carbon opposites to each other. Even down to our biology. Whatever I have of my Mum's Nicole had of my Dad's and vice versa. So, Nicole has my fathers frame and mannerism like her changing of TV channels quickly and without consideration when I have the same frame as my Mum and I hate when Nicole does that just as my Mum hated when Dad did that. I have green eyes like my Dad whereas Nicole has brown eyes like Mum. I like Only Fools and Horses, Open All Hours, Porridge etc.
Whatever the reason, me and my sister are never close we don't call each other to catch up, we text each other to ask for something, or moan about something. Mostly the asking for something. I usually get a text from Nicole along the lines of "Hey, hows you? Would you mind taking Molly out? xx" Now that's not me being horrible it's just the truth. I'm the same. So, I went up to Nicole's on the Monday so imagine my surprise when my sister texts me this :
"Hey how's u? xx"
I said,
'I'm okay, you?'
"I'm ok, just wondering if you were ok. Have you heard anything from the hospital yet?xx"
The resulting conversation was about the operation, but I was genuinely surprised, well maybe 'surprised' was the wrong word. It sounds nasty, it's not that. It was a strange feeling of my sister texting me just to see if I'm okay but she did tweet me on the 18th of Oct as well, the day that I told her.
Nice little change.
Thanks Nicole :) x
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