Change of Plans.

          So, I got a letter on Friday. It was my summary letter of my check up including a letter from the Golden Jubilee Hospital in Glasgow. Now, what I understood from this letter is that through consultation with the GJH it has been decided that a cardiac catheter should be tried in the first instance to see if they helps the leak and to basically have a better look. If that doesn't work then the operation should be considered. I have to be honest I was absolutely fuming when I got this letter, you may remember that this was not the impression the cardiologist gave me after the check up. I have spent the past (on friday) week and a half not being able to sleep, watching everything I do, in pain all the time and panicing. I haven't made much of a deal about my pain because as I highlighted earlier I don't know if it should be pointed out or even if it is real. Anyway I was crying, shouting at thin air and phoned my Mum who quickly ended the conversation, to be honest it didn't seem like she cared. Now, of course I know that what she has told me during the check up was the truth as she seen it at the time and it has only changed due to discussion with professionals at GJH. I still can't sleep properly, I'm still in pain and I'm still missing college. Nothing has changed, except it looks like this may be less serious than first thought, it also may be just as serious and take longer than first expected.

          Of course it may be worse and any one of these posts could be my last...